I saw it in the smile of the
cute barista with the frizzy brown hair
(the gums are what sold me)
who poured my drink--I complimented
his Chuck E. Cheese rainbow tie-dye
croptop and he, too, understood that life
IS actually a musical and he burst
into song—the Chuck E. Cheese theme song.
And I smiled as I opened the door and the bell
chimed in harmony and I couldn’t stop myself
from skipping on the way home.
There is Hope.
Well, she’s in Cincinnati now.
Hope is Audrey’s dog, she
moved there for her senior year
for a car (she never got it) but
I think she’s doing better now.
She’s a total gym rat and
Remy would be jealous of her fresh cut strawberries
and her special garlic mac and cheese.
I miss her. Sometimes I call her
and send her photos of things I find pretty
and she does the same. I think she’s really pretty.
THERE IS HOPE,
written in bold, white, sans-serif slapped
on a rusty plaque on the posts of the Golden Gate Bridge.
I swear San Francisco is the most beautiful place to live,
I crossed the bridge while clutching a can of cold
coffee as cars whizzed past my ears.
I grasped the metal-braided rope supports.
In my mind, I made a shrine
for the chief engineer. I could fly! (well, walk)
across the bay, and I became an aerodynamic
puzzle how the wind circled my torso and cheeks
like vector tendrils.
And peering over the side of the bridge, I looked
down to the sailboats and back to the stanchions
and wondered how one could let themselves
splatter paint over this beautiful glimmering
rust with their guts, I wondered
how we arrived at this gate, this entryway, this passage
and it became necessary for us to install rusty
telephones and I cried; I was shaking
And I swear it wasn’t the bridge shaking me.
We/they placed these safety nets, and suddenly I understood
the character I hated most in high school.
Holden was holding me and he was catching the children,
and from the bridge, the poppies on the mountains
shined golden, and I
could have sworn that they were rye.